I am feeling very drained and exhausted. It has been a rough couple of days. Our housing situation is causing anxiety in everyone no matter how hard I try to maintain peace. I know that the kids (and me) are getting a bit anxious about school starting soon. We saw another house that seemed a bit too good to be true for its price, size, and location.
It is huge and would work perfectly, everyone would have their own room. Well except me, Daniel would be with me, but there are enough rooms that I could try to wean him into his own room. (I have hope.) It has a huge fenced in yard and even a pool! An awesomely huge wonderful amazing in ground BROKEN pool. Yep, they did not tell us that before we asked to look at it.
Too good to be true.
The inside was quite a bit older than the pictures and it was dirty. There was no refrigerator either. After, soaking in everything about the house and discovering that the tenants before had virtually destroyed the home and the owners were not going to pay $4000 to replace the pool liner; I was a little bummed. The kids loved the home. They were running around and picking out their rooms. They ran all around the yard, even when I told them that we would not be able to use the pool they did not care.
They said, “We don’t care! We want a fenced in yard. You can take us to the Y or the public pool to swim we are fine with that.”
I am the one who would feel like I was missing out on something. Seeing the pool in the back, it was reminiscent of the size and style of my mom’s pool that we had when we lived in an amazing house in the south. It really does not matter we can only use a pool around here for a couple of months of the year anyway. Daniel REALLY wants the house. I have never seen him respond to a house like that before.
He will not stop talking about it and he continues to say, “Oh, I hope we get that new house.”
The reality of it is, the size is perfect, but now the price is not after seeing it. We are going to offer a price that is lower than the rent they are requesting. I am sure they feel the price is a good one for the size and location, but not really when looking at comparable houses that are much newer. The only problem is that there are not many other houses available. Ugh, I wish we could make this house work for our needs.
It is not working though, no matter what we do.
The yard and landscaping is too much for us to maintain.They changed the lease to make us responsible for things that are outrageous. We would be paying additional funds to take care of the things they are asking us to do. We just do not have the time or financial resources to do it. We have moved every year except for an almost four-year period since David and I have been together.
We have moved practically across country a couple of times and many times across each town.
I am so tired of moving. I wish we could find a place to settle. I am not complaining I am thankful for all of the homes we have had, I just want to settle down for a while and let the kids adjust. (Me too) I would like to find a place where the kids could play outside and I would not have to worry about busy streets or Daniel escaping going off somewhere I cannot find him. I just want to rest for a while.
If that makes sense.
I want some stability and time to rest. I hope they accept our offer or least counter a price that would benefit us a bit. We will have to buy a fridge, our utilities would go up in addition, and we would have to maintain a closed pool that we will never be able to use, along with other things that are going on in that house. However, overall it is a nice house in a perfect neighborhood that would be safe and offer more opportunity to do things with the kids outside, like riding bikes and walking around the neighborhood. Possibly meeting other kids??
I know I am kind of rambling; I needed to process.
I was starting to get too anxious myself. I spent an hour and half on my hands and knees this morning scrubbing the grout on the living room tiles then, I mopped it. I had to pull myself away otherwise I would have gone into a full on OCD spiral of cleaning and organizing. I promised the kids I would take them outside so I HAD to force myself to stop. AND I had to use major self-control not to pull out the bleach! I am sure I will be in a cleaning frenzy tomorrow, but for now, I am going to go try and relax.
I will leave with a fine picture of Daniel’s trophy for completing his music therapy sessions and some pictures of Mr. Nathaniel, because he is an awesome cat.