06/11/12

Cat Therapist

So many thoughts too little time! I have no idea what is going to transpire after my brain catches up with itself and processes all of the things I am reading, watching, connecting, feeling, expressing, etc… I will wait it out and go with the flow. I am trying to stop adding senseless pressure and stress upon myself. It is kind of working. While my mind has been venturing off into the realities of each day, and spinning back to my make-believe world I decided I am feeling impetuous!

I have no idea what or where my impetuous self is directing its passions toward. (Entomology for passion.)

I will say that I have been thinking of my cat a lot lately.  If you are new here and have not met my cat, let me introduce you. His name is Mr. Nathaniel Pawthorne. I call him Nathaniel, Mr. Cat, Cat, Hey Cat, Kitty Kitty Meow Meow Cat, DogCat, Hey, and Soft-Paw-Snooty-Tail-Talk-Too-Much-Cat. Ok, that last one I do not say at all. Here is the story of his arrival Mr. Nathaniel Pawthorn. He can be kind of a spaz.

Here are my spazzy detailed observations I have gathered while he has been here.  

He talks a lot. He walks the perimeter of the house meowing when it is bedtime to remind us that indeed it is time to go to bed. If we are past bedtime, he starts “meow howling” at us. (I think he is yelling.) He checks on the kids to make sure they are in bed. He is obsessive about the kids toothbrushes. He has to walk near them and inspect them for some reason. :-/ He meows and howls if the lights are not turned off when the kids are in bed. He meows (howls) if we look at him. He plays hide and seek. He chases his tails. He chases us. He comes into a room from just waking up and falls on his side as if he has been working hard all day long.

He checks on us all the time.

He is an emotional eater. He dips his paw into his water before drinking from his bowl every time. I have caught him drinking from the toilet on several occasions. He doesn’t care for any type of cat treat. The poor fella knows something is going on, but does not know what. I keep trying to explain to him that we are moving, but he seems too interested in staring at the lizards outside acting as if he is going to attack them through the window, but only flits his tail about and says, “Meow, meow, mmmeeeooowww!”

He has OCD cleaning habits if he feels nervous.

The last couple of weeks he has been nervous because I am changing things around and packing things up. He has always walked the perimeter of the house like a watchdog, but now he seems to be doing it more often. He keeps meowing at us too… like he is angry, or asking ”What are you doing?!” I wish I could help him, but he is my therapist so I really need him to step up and take care of my needs.

Oh, I am kidding.

He is quite the therapy cat though and has been. It seems like he was trained to work with autistics - I know he wasn’t. However, I knew that he belonged with us the second I saw him and then, held him. He had been in a foster home with his brothers and several dogs. I am not sure what the foster care person was like, but she seemed to care about him an awful lot and that made me feel good about him being with us.

He has always been a calm cat. 

He has patience that is mindboggling to me. I have never had a cat put up with all that he does. He will lay right in the middle of the living room while the kids are running, being loud, pretending to fly, jumping, flipping, pouncing, spinning, whatever, he just lays there. He has to be involved in everything. He does take his “cat alone time,” but he spends a large portion of his day interacting in his way when we are doing school, playing, or hanging out.

None of my other cats were like this. 

The major thing that I find so interesting about Nathaniel is that since he got here whenever Daniel would have a meltdown the cat would come and get right in the middle of what was going on. It does not matter if Daniel is being aggressive or not the cat comes next to me and starts rubbing himself on Daniel or me. The cat has helped snap Daniel out of some meltdowns because I tell him, “Look the cat is worried about you.” or “Daniel you have to stop you may hurt the cat.” He does not want to hurt the cat. It has been beneficial at times giving Daniel another focus to direct his attentions on.

If I am crying, or Ariel or Joshua have a hard time here comes Nathaniel. 

He does not like it when the kids are arguing and he comes running into the room and starts head butting, rubbing his body on them, and purring. He will come and give kitty kisses, smelling my face or the kids face to make sure we are ok after things happen. Maybe other cats do this, but I have never had one. He does not like to be held, but he loves to have his back and belly scratched. As well as his back-end patted like a baby. Strange cat.

Every morning he lies right outside my bedroom door. 

He is waiting for me to wake up and give him his morning rubdown. Before I do anything else, I have to say, “Hello Cat” while giving a kitty massage. I admit that is therapy for me too. His purring, and soft fur calms me. He is gentle and sweet, but does not smother me. I do not like to be smothered with demanding affection from humans, or animals. We have a healthy boundary of affection toward each other and a mutual balance.

Why am I writing all of this? 

I am worried about my kitty. I am worried that this move is going to affect his personality. I do not think it will, but he is such a sweetheart I do not want him to lose any of that because of fear, or kitty anxiety. I know that I may sound silly to some – it’s just a cat. Yes, I know I have heard that before. My other two cats that I had were affected by my moves so I do have reason to think about these things. I think it will be better if we move into a house straight away and he can adjust. The thoughts still lurk about in my mind.

I worry about the kids, and I worry about the cat. 

I am trying to make it as smooth as possible… I am sure all will be fine. I needed to get this out so I wouldn’t loop about my cat. Ha ha ha I can be a little obsessive about him sometimes. I can also project feelings on him that in reality he is only staring thinking cat thoughts. Whatever those are, still it is fun to project silly thoughts and think my cat is a mastermind in the kitty world creating global schemes to take over the house, or the WORLD!

Right now he is hiding behind a gate thinking that I cannot see him.

I took a picture and his eyes are glowing! Awesome! Ok, I am finished I am going to go talk to my Cat therapist. Yes, I do lie on the couch while he sits and listens. He cannot write, but on many occasions he walks across the iPad, I am fairly certain that he is trying to type. He seems to like to use the keyboard on our other computers as well.

Picture Time!

I am sharing what the kids and have been doing this morning as well. Just because. Wii workouts baby! Hee hee Ariel read an entire Calvin and Hobbes cartoon book yesterday and is reading another one at the moment. She also started drawing “Dark Phoenix.” The boys do not know what to with themselves. Joshua decided to be a worm in a sleeping bag and Daniel created a Lego city.

Exciting stuff people! :-)

Oh! My mom is doing her first “Fantasy” type painting for my sister and I am showing it off. I LOVE the tree and the castle! It is not finished and she will yell at me for showing it. Oopsy! Ok, I am done. I went a little wild on the pictures… Oh, well.

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10/10/11

Really Silly I Know

I am a goof, but I have to write this because it will make me smile when I reread it at some point in my life. Plus I am talking about my great eye contact that I made today! This morning was going just as well as any other morning, but I could not shake the feeling that I needed to go to the Goodwill down the road because I had a feeling that it would have the white boots that I needed for my Halloween costume. Yes, I have to dress as Padmé Amidala, Joshua is insisting and when my sisters found out they too insisted that I must be her for Halloween. They love dressing up for Halloween and everything about it so they are very excited that we are participating this year.

The kids and I headed off to the Goodwill.

I do not normally go to this Goodwill because it is a bit pricey actually and a lot chaotic. I was a little hesitant, but decided to go. As we entered the first thing that I saw on a rack to the right was a pair of white boots that would be perfect! Yes! They were my size and I was willing to pay the $6.99 for the boots. I mean they are as perfect as you can get for a scruffy pair of boots to wear for a costume. It is not like I am entering a contest or anything, I am just dressing up for my kids and be fun. After that I went looking for a top, a belt, and some pants. I found a top and belt that will work, but no pants. I will keep looking, I have time. The kids found a toy each that they wanted and we were on our way out when I just had the urge to go check the other shoe rack.

AND guess what was lying right on top?

A pair of Black Chuck Taylor All Star Converse! There are several things (people are not included in this) in life that I truly love, I mean L-O-V-E. Some of them are boots, coats, hats, cats, and Converse. I have wanted these forever, but would not pay the money to get them. I did get some as a gift, but they were not the correct ones. These were the correct ones, they were my size, in boys, which meant they were only $3.99! I was so happy I even came up with a dance. Also, after I cleaned them a bit I pet them and admired them. I know I sound very strange, but truly it made me so happy. I cannot tell you how happy it made me. The little things like this give me some joy. :-)

I went to the register with a little leap in my step.

The guy at the register didn’t really look at me, but said: “Hi, how are you doing?” and I said: “I am good, how are you?” as I looked directly at him. Now this was kind of a big deal because the store was chaotic, loud, and people were all in my space. The radio was blaring and at one point I said rather loudly “Why is the music screaming at me?” Ariel pointed up and said: “The radio is right there mom.” I didn’t realize the speaker was directly in my ear. The kids were overloaded. Daniel was scraping the hangers against the racks making a horrible sound, Ariel was “ice skating” across the floor with her shoes and it made a horrible swooshing scrape sound. Joshua was wandering and could not focus or hear me, but when we got to the register Ariel and Joshua sat in the chair waiting and Daniel was at the register with me fixated on the bell.

The guy stopped ringing up my items looked at me and said: “I am doing alright.”

Then he kind of looked at me and it felt awkward, I had drifted to his forehead, but he thought I was still looking at him. He then became very friendly and rang me up with a different feel about him. I think it meant something to him that I was really asking him how he was doing. I did mean it, I had hoped he was doing well in the midst of that chaotic loud store. There were some rude people in there as well. He handed me my change and I looked right at him and thanked him and he thanked me too. I know for most people this is a normal interaction, but for me it can be overwhelming or too awkward. I don’t know how to explain it other than it just felt different and kind of like a dream state for a moment during that interaction.

I was happy that I did so well with my eye contact and the kids and I bebopped out of the store.

I was very happy to have a positive moment like that. I am going to have to practice a bit more since I have been out of the “people” loop for so long. I have  been just trying to “survive” social and sensory situations. Now I am trying to work on my social skills since I will need them if we are going to move and be a lot more social. It has helped that I have been reading, talking, and writing about communication. It has made me more aware of things and better understand my limitations and where I can push myself. All of this in hopes of helping the kids do better. I think I can learn a lot from them as well. :-)

Converse I love you!!!!


 

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10/9/11

Funday Foto Fest I

Ariel and I have been painting, drawing and doodling a bunch. Joshua and Daniel not so much. Joshua did partake in a couple of paintings. Ariel named all of the pictures and they seem to have a common theme. Her dragon drawings have now eased their way down the hallway, on almost every wall of her room, and most importantly have surrounded her bed. She said that she had to make all of these dragons to feel safe in her room. She said that they protect her from fear of shadows. Fascinating. She also made several Halloween pictures, I have a few here. She cracks me up, David walked in on her the other day and asked what she was doing she said: “Reading Frankenstein.” She was, she then told him all about the scientist that made a monster, but she didn’t understand why people got upset with the Frankenstein monster. Hee hee She is awesome. :-)

 


 

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05/18/11

Randomness Of Me

I am all over the place today! I have been writing about my childhood and what I call “The fitting in method” that has not worked by the way but it has been just a huge load of brain dumping on my part. I need to go back through those posts but they have been full of seriousness that has brought me full circle into my complete silly mode. I wrote this poem today to help shake that last bit of seriousness out. Have you heard the song Shake Your Sillies Out? That’s what I am doing only with the serious thoughts because they are starting to make me loop.

I thought I would help myself along by writing a post with the things that have randomly crossed my mind.

First I was thinking of poetry, as I was thinking of a certain picture image that made me think of Nick Cave, I have a strange obsession with him, it must be his quirkiness, which made me think of this The Cat Piano. Be warned you may feel pain  when watching this, I love the poem even though it is a hard story. Thinking of that reminded me of this Tim Minchin’s Storm. Another warning there is language and though I may not agree with all of what he has to say, I like the poem and I think it is very important to be a critical thinker and I thought it was good to hear someone else say that if I am wrong I am willing to change my mind kind of message.

And that made me think of Mr. Deity and the Skeptic.

I was then thinking of how some people get quite offended at things like these and I find myself not getting angry or offended. I am intrigued, I appreciate these things for their humor and for the way they challenge me to consider my faith and beliefs. It doesn’t waver my faith in God, in many ways it has made my foundations stronger because I have dismantled the things that others told me and found it on my own. I do not know why I feel the need to say all of that, possibly the lingering fear of rejection. Oh, great I got all serious again. I don’t want to!

From that moment I went into remembering “The Smolder“.

That’s right! We watched Tangled for the first time yesterday and I think it is one of my favorite Disney flicks ever. The Rapunzel character reminds me so much of Ariel that I laughed and laughed. I loved how they made the witch so passive-aggressive because I was able to teach the kids about mean jokes and how people use them to say mean things but then say “I was just kidding”.

After finding the smolder clip I found this awesome commercial “Smolder” By Flynn.

Ha ha ha I know I may be the only one understanding this post, it gives you a look into my brain on certain days. I just have to add that Ariel wore her stuffed chameleon on her head all night last night and David laughed and said “It’s like looking at you 30 years ago.” I said “30 years? More like the other day!” Ok, that is all I will share, sorry if I  have given you a headache or spun you in confusion.

Imagine what it’s like being me, I am trapped in my own silly random thoughts all day!

 


 


 

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