Almost One Of The Worst Days – Ever!
{I wrote this last night.}
Last night we went to a fall festival type of thing. We made it about an hour. It ended up getting extremely cold and we are NOT used to that. It will take a while to acclimate to this weather – I never will, maybe the kids will. We had as much fun as possible. Daniel ended up shutting down. The noise, smells, crowds of people, lights, wind, etc… was too much. It was too much for all of us, but I managed to stay in “mom mode” until we got home. I had to take some quiet time before I had meltdown or shutdown myself.
I managed to entertain myself in the car in Target’s parking lot.
I was trying to get a picture of the moon and me through the window. I got it, but it does not look much different from the lights in the parking lot. Oh, well it made me laugh really hard, for whatever reason. (Last week I practiced ballet in Target’s parking lot. It is a great parking lot! People most likely think that I am a nutter. I cannot help it I love big, wide open spaces it makes me want to dance.) I then decided to try to get a snapshot of my birthmark because I have talked about it so much. In most of my pictures, I am very good at covering it up. I use my hair, turn to a certain side, or I wear turtlenecks. I decided it was time to share a snippet of it. :-) Sorry, I am babbling.
Let’s just say that last night caused a day full of overloaded kids and mommy in the house.
School went so-so, Daniel is a few lessons behind, but he had such a hard time today that I finally stopped. In five hours, I think we got through two or three lessons. I cannot remember now. I decided that we all should hang out in the living room for a while and try to unwind. However, several confusing moments later, Daniel was upset with the three of us and I could not help him calm down. In the midst of that, someone came to the door. The UPS guy needed my signature. I did not know what it was and I was rather annoyed because I do not usually have to sign for anything. Unless, unless it is an Apple product!!
Woot! The allocated funds for my Mac Mini came in and it was purchased!
The lovely arrived at my door; I opened it up, took pictures, took it out of the box, and hugged it. I then, told it how much I loved it. Only to put it back in the box because I have too much going on to play with my new best friend. I want to give it proper attention you know. 
Actually, I fear that I will not be able to pull myself from it. I have so much with Halloween and the twin’s birthday this weekend that I know I will shutdown, focus on my Mac Mini, and forget the rest of the world.
I am being responsible.
I was full of elation, until, until! David went to get the mail and saw bloody paw prints. I looked out the door and there was a trail of bloody little paw prints going back and forth on the tiles in front of the house. I was very distraught. I did not see the little creature and I was worried that it was around somewhere, lying there and suffering. David looked around the house and found nothing. At this point, I realized that I had not seen Nathaniel in a long time. Fear took over. I ran around the house looking for the cat. I went to all of his hiding places. I called his name. He normally comes when I call, or at least meows at me. Nothing!
I started to panic and ran outside.
I started screaming, “Nathaniel!” David was searching all over the yard; I was kicking and moving leaves that had covered the front area of the house. Nothing! I went back inside, the kids were now all upset because they could not find him either. I thought possibly he got out when I opened the door for the UPS guy because it was a bit chaotic during that time. I could not remember seeing anything. I was so scared and worried. I ran back outside looking all around. I went to the street to see if I could see anything. Nothing! Finally, I heard Ariel yelling, “Mom! He’s alive! Nathaniel is alive!”
Joshua found him buried in Ariel’s closet.
I yelled for David and told him that he was ok. All of us stood around Nathaniel, petting him and telling him how happy we were to find him. He yawned, meowed, and then, licked his front paws, leaving us with a rather bored look. I will say, he has not left us since the incident though. We still did not find the poor critter that was hurt. It seems as though it is long gone. I hate the thought of it being out there suffering, but there is nothing I can do. I am so relieved that the cat was all right.
It would have been awful to experience that during Daniel’s death anxiety.
I was surprised at how upset he was. I was not sure why he was crying and behaving the way he was. The reason being that only moments before he was upset at me because I scared him. I came in and told Ariel and Joshua to calm down a little because they were getting loud. Daniel has been extremely sensitive to sound today. Daniel had his back to me when I came in the room, when I spoke I startled him and he got upset. I was unsure if he was crying because he was upset about being startled, or if it was about the cat.
I found out a little bit ago that he thought the cat was hit by a car and was dead.
That was why he was crying. Aaaaa! It did not help that I started to lose it when I could not find the cat. I adore my cat. I ADORE my cat! I would not handle it well at all if I lost him. I will be very honest; I do not even know how to describe what I feel at the thought of losing my cat. I am so thankful that he was found. I decided that the kids and I just needed to sit and watch something and hang out together after the whole ordeal. Mr. Nathaniel joined us. I had recorded “Too Cute: Animal Planet“ the other night for us to watch so I put that on and we all got our happy back on. I tell you what; I am pretty much over all of the “almost” scares going on lately.
So for the ending of this post I will share some pictures with grand happy smiles!
My thoughts and prayers are with all of the East Coasters!!
