I have a tendency to feel like I have not accomplished anything so I took pictures of the garage yesterday. I still have more to load in there, but David will be here soon with the truck and we will be off loading all that is in there first.
So there is what I accomplished in the garage.
I did not take pictures of the inside accomplishments – it is a mess and making me batty! Still after looking at the garage I asked David if I had accomplished a lot. I felt like I had not because I see all that needs to be done. I have to fight the overwhelming feelings of not being able to finish. Right now it seems impossible, too much, and it can derail me. I have had to fight my mind to keep focused. What has helped me this time around is writing. Instead, of cutting myself off from writing, or stimming by whatever means, I have allowed myself to continue. This has helped get my “Flash Lightening” skills on.
See if I am able to stim, I am much more productive in short amounts of time.
If I do not allow myself to stim, or get my words out through writing, I loop, get distracted, feel consumed by overwhelming feelings. It will feel like I am being swallowed up by chaos and I cannot think. That will cause me to search for other distracting things, and ultimately into a meltdown/shutdown. I will then be of no use to anyone, and will get nothing accomplished. The kids are all doing what they need to as well. Daniel has not been able to calm himself for days, but today he has found some sort of inner peace. I believe it is because he saw the truck, and now the anticipation is starting to settle.
He has been asking all types of questions.
Joshua has engulfed himself with Lego building, playing, and going on the Lego site. He is watching Lego “The Lord of The Rings” videos they have on there. Ariel has been on the Visible Body website studying every detail of human anatomy, how the body heals, how a baby is formed in the womb, and disease. David got this app Plague Inc. and he and Ariel have been taking out our human race left and right with viruses they create. Plague Inc. – Universal – HD Gameplay Trailer (It is a tad bit long.)
She has spent her time analyzing the body and and drawing what she sees.
This morning she went into detailed descriptions with me about each picture she drew. She drew healthy lungs and lungs of a person who smokes. She drew the stomach, and explained to me how it works from beginning to end. I had to share her drawings. I peeked in on her yesterday to make sure she was ok. She had her arm up, and was feeling her muscles, touching places and saying the names of the parts, as she was looking at the images on the computer. Later, she showed me her drawing of the arm. She has also been drawing X-Men and Batman scenes. She went through all of those this morning as well sharing her stories. She drew pictures of the cat and of her as some sort of creature. She said she feels like a creature right now, both angry and happy. Hmm…sounds familiar.
I just had to share what she created – so a billion pictures indeed! (Yes, I had to put a pic of the cat.)