I wanted to share a post today, but my day did not go as planned. I busted my booty cleaning this house for people to come in and look at it today. I am very happy with the progress I made and I am now way ahead of schedule. I will not be slacking by any means. There is still plenty of work to do – it is nice to have a little breathing room though. There were two appointments one at 11:30 am and one at 1:00 pm.
We made plans to go to the park with the neighbors for a little while.
Then, I was going to drop the kids off at my mom’s so I could have a little time to myself. Well… it started pouring down rain and we had to cancel the park. Change of plans – I took David to the coffee shop for him to work, and the kids and I went to mom’s. I decided to go to the store for a little bit to get some birthday items for Joshua’s early birthday party next week. I went to Wal-Mart, and wished I had not.
However, it was the only place that carried what I needed.
I left frustrated and overloaded, but surprisingly calm. I think it was the drive I took on the island listening to music before I ventured back to go to the store. Another tidbit is that I was calm driving in the pouring down rain, I could barely see and was not a nervous wreck. Strange. (Oh, the CD player in the car is now broken… not happy about that.) Come to think of it I had to go to two other stores first thing this morning as well, but felt calm. Hmm… Good for me! 
(Maybe it was all that bleach I used to clean.)
It was around 1:15 pm so I decided to go get David to take him home.
When I arrived he seemed not too pleased – apparently, he tried to call me and texted me several times to let me know that the people who were supposed to be there at 1:00 pm rescheduled for 2:00 pm. Oops! My bad! I must have turned my ringer down or something because I was completely unaware.
Since I was already there we decided to go to mom’s and wait.
The people never came. All of the kids are out of sorts because of everything I have been doing this week. David cleaned his upstairs and the gate was off which means that the new obsession has been climbing stairs. The kids going upstairs – change. Me not doing our normal schedule - change. We had our day changed on us a few times today and with the anticipation of moving, meltdowns have been waiting – just bubbling at each second.
Yeppers, poor Daniel lost it at Grammy’s.
It took about half an hour to finally get out of there. I had to sit in the back with him, after I finally got him in the car. We got home and it started again. Ariel and Joshua have had their meltdowns today as well. I have been bracing myself for them. Overall, I am amazed that it took this long. Things are settled now, but I am sure there may be a couple more waiting to come out. I am really amazed that I haven’t had one.
I almost had one yesterday.
I was cleaning the refrigerator and threw a bottle of soy sauce away. I despise the smell, feel, and look of soy sauce. The bottle shattered, but I didn’t know it until I picked up the garbage bag and saw brown liquid on the floor. However, before I realized what it was it got on my hands and I stepped in it! BLAH! I started yelling “Oh, God! Oh, my God!” while flapping my hands and making a mad dash to the sink. Soy sauce makes your hands smell and it’s sticky! The kids thought I was hilarious. Daniel started to laughing and then, imitating me yelling the same thing. Lol!
I told him not to say that, I shouldn’t have yelled that.
I was seriously overloaded though. I had been using cleaning supplies and touching cold things so the soy sauce sent me over. I was able to snap out of it quickly because the kids made me laugh so hard by asking me why soy sauce makes me freak out. (giggles) I think I am not going to do anything tomorrow. I will pile on my 50 million blankets – stay curled in bed, and cover my ears with pillows. Yeah, that is not going to happen. What a grand fantasy….
I wanted to post something from my drafts tonight.
I currently have 134 drafts. I started to go through them and found my titles to be very amusing. While I scanned through them, I decided that I was not in the mood to edit or post any of them. Instead, I decided to list the first twenty titles and share them because they may make some people laugh. We can laugh together. I am also sharing some pictures because I think that they are pretty and others may enjoy them too. I might have shared some of these before I can’t remember tonight.
So ta-da! Here are some post titles waiting to be edited!
Things About An Aspie Girl
About A Crow
Overwhelmed With Love
Pottitastic!
Poetry And Lies
It’s Not a Poker Face — It’s My Normal Face! I
It’s Not a Poker Face — It’s My Normal Face! II
Empathy…I’m Told
Freaking Out!
I Didn’t Panic…Seriously.
Anxiety and Irrational Fears
Tell Me Who Is Functioning?
Finally! I Understand Me…With This Anyway
The Story of Yellow
Are You There God? It’s Me, Angel.
Plans For The Day…Not Happening
Overwhelmed With Myself
Emotions and Closing Some Loops…Maybe
People Magnetic
One of My Favorite Movies (I’ll share the movie “The Apostle” I am a Robert Duvall fan as well.)
Whew!
Angel, you amaze me with your productive energy and vigor! I’ve got tons in draft myself and fear I will bomb the world with a massive updating frenzy. I get so wound up before I hit publish that I can’t do it. I’m just to obsessed over details and in general, wound up.
I admire your balance. I’m going to promise my self to publish TODAY!
Hugs!
Lori
Thank you for the hugs Lori! I actually needed some.
This energy craze runs in my family and then, we all crash then, bounce back into the energizer bunny, then crash – it’s a vicious cycle. Ha ha ha
I need to pop over and see if you posted! I used to be so worried, and filled with anxiety when I posted something. I would go to it for days rereading it, checking for mistakes, trying to read it from all points of view and then, editing it to make sure I didn’t offend someone, or try to make sure no one would misunderstand me. It was exhausting!
This past year I have let it go more and more and have written whatever. I realized that a blog is a living being of words, and it’s ok to change it if I make a mistake. Also, I discovered that most people are forgiving of grammatical errors, or normally read things at face value. I had the crazy notion that they were reading every single thing I wrote and went back to make sure I was never inconsistent. What silly thing to do to myself. I wasn’t even allowing myself room to grow, or change my mind. No one else judges me as harshly as I judge myself! I have recently watched Infinity about Richard Feynman and there is a quote in there that I have since adopted “What do you care what other people think?”
I also thought about why I have been so hard on myself, I think the root is wanting so much to be accepted that I have cared far too much what other people think. Mainly, what family has thought about me that has been my biggest obstacle – I tend to not be so uptight when it’s people I do not know very well, but I always have the lingering anxiety of saying something wrong, offending people, or being misunderstood. I really want to be ok with just being me and saying/writing what I need to without that fear. Oops! I went on a tangent sorry! I hope you can relate and understand what I am talking about! Aaaa! Lol!
Balance! I need balance!
Ok, I am going now and writing a rather lighthearted post about my cat!
Have you seen the movie? Here is the trailer.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tP6CER-bF-0