Yesterday went great! Well after my almost meltdown and complete freak out over things not going as I planned. I did well controlling myself and just letting the kids be kids. They were so excited all day waiting, anticipating and being anxious. As I was trying to get everything ready, they were asking me questions, talking about their “presidents” (I don’t know why they call presents that we have corrected them over and over but that is their word for now.) Asking when grammy and auntie will get here, where is daddy, why is he gone so long, what is he getting, what is going on mom???? Daniel in the background to each of Ariel and Joshua’s questions, “why, why, why, why, why, why,why?”.
My head felt a bit dizzy.
I thought I had prepared well and had my list ready to go in the morning. I decided to make a gluten-free angel food cake. It was my first attempt, I was a little nervous. I read over the recipe for a week, over and over studying the ingredients and the instructions. I got up that morning went over the recipe again, I MISSED AN INGREDIENT! I looked at this a million times and I missed potato starch. I read for substitute ingredients and every where I looked there was no way to substitute. Look we are in a nook in the south and let me tell you it is pretty hard to find a lot of these ingredients near by, we can’t just hop to a store and get it, because they usually do not carry items like this. We have three stores close to us, one grocery store, there are a few that are about 15 mins. away but we were on a time constraint.
David had to run to the store, this was not in the plan.
I was so upset with myself but I moved on and went to the next task, the cake would just need to be made later. I felt awful because David needed to work not go out and look for some ingredient that should be easy to find but knowing full well it wouldn’t be. As he was out we realized that I had forgotten several other items as well. Sigh….What was wrong with my brain? I made lists I prepared and still I was unable to stay on top of this and make it a less stressful day. Anyway, David ended up going to 7 different stores, he found the potato starch and made it home safely, two hours later.
I started on the cake and it went smoothly.
Then everything was settling down, I had lunch finished, the kids were all settled as much as they could be while reeling with excitement, I was still feeling anxious though. My mom had emailed me and asked if I needed her earlier, I said yes if you can help with keeping Daniel off my hip because he has been super-glued to me for a week. I don’t know why but I can’t do anything. He refused to let me clean the house because he insisted that I stay with him. I think I know what that is about but I will write about it another time. Anyway I never heard back from her so I didn’t know if she was coming or not. I just needed a yes or a no, she knows this! But she too is under stress from other things so I knew I had to let it go. Over all everything was going well, until I went to make the icing.
It wouldn’t set!
I had the mixer going, it was loud and it wouldn’t set! Daniel was asking me to turn it off, I wanted to so badly. David had to take him to another room and shut the door because he was covering his ears and this could be the thing that would ruin it for him. Finally, after what felt like an hour and me on the verge of tears because it was frustrating and too loud, it set. I made the cakes and I had to hurry because I was late on the schedule. I thought everything should be fine now. BUT Ariel had requested a Wonder Woman cake, we got an edible sheet of her and it wouldn’t come off of the sheet. By this time I was pretty done, I told Ariel that I couldn’t get it off, waiting for her to be upset, but she was fine. She said “Ok, mom you can just put it on and we won’t eat her.” Sigh of relief.
I made Daniel’s fan cake in like two seconds and was worried that it was awful.
He said ” It has five blades!” I asked if he liked it and he said “YEAH!” Ok, good enough, let’s open presents. The present thing went great, my sister got Daniel the best present ever Imaginarium 100-piece Marble Race, he loves it. He really participated in unwrapping gifts, even when he was over it. He just wanted to play with the stuff he had opened and didn’t much care about the others but he did open them. Ariel was awesome, she had so much fun and was excited. She got some Scooby-Doo stuff, Lego’s, Superhero Women, and a Funkey’s guy she has been wanting for a long time. (A special interest that happens to be discontinued. We do find them cheap on Ebay.) Joshua got one gift and he could hardly control himself waiting, he got a cool Star Wars Lego book and my sister gave him a Scooby-Doo hat with ears. Too funny.
By the end of the day David and I were spent.
We basically collapsed and I realized that I had forgotten to eat all day, except cake, that could explain why I was feeling sick and also feeling more stress than I needed to. All in all it was a perfect day, no one got overloaded, everyone played together and shared their gifts, Daniel talked and didn’t go off by himself at all, which in the past he has done. He would just go off in another room to take a break, but he didn’t need to yesterday. He also started initiating contact with David instead of me. I sat right next to him and he directed his questions to “daddy”, that is new too we have been upgraded to “mommy” and “daddy” instead of “mom” or “dad’. I was so happy that he was talking only to David (I know that sounds a bit odd, but it is a good thing.) and engaging with him with his questions and asking him for help, especially with me right next to him. Now they are all having David build things with them and talking about the party they had.
It was a great birthday bash!
Side Note: Yesterday I did write the post Make-Up, while I was feeling all of this anxiety. I think my mind went off in this direction to help me calm myself. It did help for me to write and get my mind back to a calmer state. I published it today though because I wrote very quickly yesterday and I had to go over it.
Some pictures of the festivities and this morning.