I had a birthday a few weeks ago and I turned 37 years old. I rather like it. I like getting older and other people seem to think I am crazy for feeling this way. I don’t understand why. I have sisters who are between 10 and 20 yrs younger than me and they are worried about getting old. My 27-year-old sister makes comments like she is missing her prime to have another child. What? I am thinking I have another 10 years to decide if I want to have another child. Though I know the risks are higher, I still see no reason why I cannot have another child in my 40’s if David and I feel as though we would like to do that. (Though I really don’t think we will, we are quite content with our three.)
I feel like my life has just begun!
I feel young, I try to keep myself strong and healthy and I actually feel much better than I did in my 20’s. When I was in my 20’s, I was drinking all the time, working crazy hours, in bad relationships, confused about my world, I didn’t eat, sleep, and didn’t take care of myself at all. Now that I have changed all of that I am much happier and feel much better. I am still confused sometimes but isn’t that a part of life anyway? Shouldn’t we be confused so we will continue to ask questions?
That’s what keeps me energetic and alive–questions!
I have so many things I want to discover and learn and teach my kids and myself. I want to explore different worlds and have adventures. I am not talking about traveling the world physically, though that would be great if my AS issues didn’t send me in a tailspin, ( not to mention everyone else in the family with AS stuff and we don’t have money for that) but right here at home, there is so much to do! I am captivated by the questions and thoughts of my children and the things that pop in my head, so much so that I have at least another 60 or more years to pack my brain full of stuff and push my body to do things. God willing I will live that adventurous and exciting life that I have been living for the past 37 years!
I am excited about the years ahead.
If illness comes my way in other forms I pray I am strong enough to continue living this exciting and enjoyable life I have been given. I don’t want to waste it on being negative. I want to jump into it and be swallowed up by the joys that are surrounding me. We have our troubles but they are nothing compared to the amazing life we live. We are incredibly blessed that I get to stay home with the kids, that David free lances from home, that we are the primary people in the growth, development, and life of our children. That makes life so awesome in itself.
We are very thankful to live this life and for the challenges and blessing of our children and each other.
My life has heartbreak sometimes, it gets me sometimes, (mainly people) but then I am reminded about the life we have. I cherish the fact that as I get older I do learn more, I have my eyes opened more, I love more, I accept more, and if I have a few wrinkles who cares!! I feel like I am 15 yrs old some days and I will continue to embrace the youth of my soul and dance in the freedom of my new age each year! Life is good even during the worst of days, life is good.
If you don’t like getting older, I ask why? The days in the past seem like glory days but are they really?